Monday, October 09, 2006

Friendship.. or wht've made of it...

Remember a time, not so long ago, when making a friend was so easy?

'Hey mum, am back from school..And these are my new best friends Priya & Sanjana.
And the old ones?
Oh, they are my best friends too! See, now i have 4 instead of 2!'

Thats about how simple it was. And why shouldnt it be?

But some how, it isn't anymore! The older i grow, the more complex relationships seem to get!
Some of the things that get in the way:

1. Feelings:
-Am i allowed to feel this much? I hardly know the person!
-Why is he being so nice? What does he really want?

2.People:
-Everyone else doesnt like him, so will it be ok if i still talk to him?
-Is she 'good enough' to hang out with?

3.Pride:
-Why cant he come up and talk to me?
-Why should i call him first, i'll just wait for him too!

4.Time:
-Will call, tomorrow is just as good as today!
-I should call, but a message will be just as good!

5.Impression:
-If i call him again, will i come across as too needy and desperate?
- I miss him, but why tell him! No need for him to know , that he is important to me!

.. And the list goes on and on and on.. If its not one thing its the other...
*sigh*

Why cant i just plain enjoy someone's company anymore?
Why cant friendship be that beautiful , simple thing that its meant to be?
Why does anything else besides the person count?
Why does everything else but the person count ?
Why does every friendship have to be judged and given a label?
Why is being friendly judged as being needy?

The only lil bits that count, and yet we make such a complete mess!!

{sigh * 2}

z.






4 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

One Line.....

Who decided for you that you cannot enjoy and treasure being friends or more with someone that u wished to....???

Isn't it YOU???


Think about it. Why worry about what others will do or think....Do what u think is right and life will get simpler.

7:12 PM  
Blogger Boogerworm said...

Hey, after months of stillnes; finally some activity on ur blog. I agree with you; too many thoughts, too many decisions.. but I believe that if you 2 are meant to be friends... it will happen despite all odds... and if it is not meant to be... no amount of efforts will be enough. So chill and just go with your instinct

12:09 AM  
Blogger Ameya said...

hey gal some serious post huh!! well its a fact that relationships tend to get complicated as we start growing. During the younger days we are much more innocent and hardly understand the meaning of relationships. Well its something we need to accept. But still u can make frds at any stage in u r life!! So enjoy it and welcome new ppl in to u r life!

7:30 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

im dumbfounded

dont want to agree wid a single word thr

but still its happnin

3:12 PM  

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