I resolve to..

I resolve to, from now on, forever:

1) Stop, pause, take some time out..to actually feel..
How have I allowed my life to fall into such a monotonous routine? How come i have lived for so long and have so little to account for all those years? What about real experiences? In the end wont they count for much, much more?

2) Do something just coz my heart says so, even if my brain strongly disagrees..
When did everything become so logic bound? When did I get so bitter, practical and cynical? Who ever said that a successful life has to be lived on the basis of logic and logic alone? How could this be the right way to live?

3) Feel, strongly and completely..
When did i start holding my feelings back? Why do i try to regulate how much i feel? Why am i afraid to give all of myself to someone? Whats the worst that could happen? And when did the worse that could happen outweigh the pure happiness of just feeling?

4) Show emotion, even in public..
When was it deemed not okay to cry in a movie? Why does it matter if someone else looks and sniggers? When did crying become an act of the weak? How does it matter what other people think? Why can't I laugh like a child, loud and hard? From when was that considered rude and impolite? And why does it matter, even if it is?

5) Change what i can, let go what i can't and have the ability to tell the difference between what i can and what i cant..
When did I forget that everything in life cant change to accomodate me, to suit my needs? That sometimes being able to let go, makes me the stronger, not the weaker person?

6) Real friends are few and far between.. so hold on, tight..
When did losing touch with people become so easy? Why take for granted that if you lose a friend, the next one will be just around the corner? When did people, real people, people who care, become so easily replaceable?

7) Realise that people are good, with a little bad.. not bad with a little good..
When did trusting my neighbour become so hard? When did it get natural to view nice people with suspicion? When did I start expecting my friends to bitch about me the moment I turned my back on them as if it was the most natural thing in the word?

8) Tell the people who make me the person I am.. "Thank you.. I care too"
When did telling someone that he is appreciated, become such a big event? When did saying thank you, become a time consuming "duty"? From when did I become willing to let go, the pleasure of seeing someone's face light up, when I tell them that they've made a difference, a big difference? Why do I just take their niceness for granted? When did niceness become such a hopelessly underrated commodity?

*sigh*

Life may be a little bit of nothing, but it is upto me to make these little bits good; to make these little bits count; to make these little bits fair and not just to me; to make these little bits, that will one day be lost in the sands of time, a cherished moment for someone, now..

Lest I forget,

"... For when the great scorer comes,

To write against your name,

He write not if you won or lost,

But how you played the game.."

Grantland Rice (1880 - 1954)

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