Friendship.. or wht've made of it...

Remember a time, not so long ago, when making a friend was so easy?

'Hey mum, am back from school..And these are my new best friends Priya & Sanjana.
And the old ones?
Oh, they are my best friends too! See, now i have 4 instead of 2!'

Thats about how simple it was. And why shouldnt it be?

But some how, it isn't anymore! The older i grow, the more complex relationships seem to get!
Some of the things that get in the way:

1. Feelings:
-Am i allowed to feel this much? I hardly know the person!
-Why is he being so nice? What does he really want?

2.People:
-Everyone else doesnt like him, so will it be ok if i still talk to him?
-Is she 'good enough' to hang out with?

3.Pride:
-Why cant he come up and talk to me?
-Why should i call him first, i'll just wait for him too!

4.Time:
-Will call, tomorrow is just as good as today!
-I should call, but a message will be just as good!

5.Impression:
-If i call him again, will i come across as too needy and desperate?
- I miss him, but why tell him! No need for him to know , that he is important to me!

.. And the list goes on and on and on.. If its not one thing its the other...
*sigh*

Why cant i just plain enjoy someone's company anymore?
Why cant friendship be that beautiful , simple thing that its meant to be?
Why does anything else besides the person count?
Why does everything else but the person count ?
Why does every friendship have to be judged and given a label?
Why is being friendly judged as being needy?

The only lil bits that count, and yet we make such a complete mess!!

{sigh * 2}

z.